Day In, Day Out

I once met one of my lecturers to discuss my doubt in teaching writing to ESL learners. At the end of the discussion, the lecturer stared at me and said, 'It's great that there is a student who thinks ahead of time.' After a long pause, I commented: 'I admit that English is very hard to be mastered. I was once an ESL learner and I found it very difficult for me to produce a good essay. I had received little guidance and I felt really stupid. I just want to help my students so that my students won't experience what I'd experienced'.

When I meet people, many would say that I wont make it to the top. Many predict that I would end up just behind them. They are bold that they can say it with confidence and I am strong to be immune to the critiques and pitiful look towards me. Hate it? Never do I as I have been living with that. 'Pity you Lisa' 'You are the type of student who needs to work hard to succeed' etc Frequently I give those people a smirk but there are times when I talk back. All of us have visions and dreams. But there are two type of people with visions and dreams. The first group is the people who work hard for it and the other is a group of people who let their visions and dreams come to them by chance. I belong to the first group because I hate waiting and I don't see the point of losing the chances that I have in the present. More, I have a supportive family that always been helpful to me and a boyfriend who seems to understand my attitude towards achieving my dreams. Ju

Assalamualaikum and hello there ;) I just got back from USIM. Though most of the time I had no one to talk with, I seemed to enjoy the conference. It was nice to have the experience of having a friendly chat with either Associate Professor or Professor. They treated me like I am one of 'them'. The 'them' is defined as the people who have at about the same educational level as them as most of the presenters and the audiences of the conference were people with at least are doing their phd. They might have mistaken me as a phd student. Hehe.  The organiser placed my slot at the end of the conference (this might be due to my topic). At first I felt good about my study but 5 minutes before my turn, I felt that it is rubbish. Why? Because of the reliability of the researcher which is me. The study was conducted when I was in my second year degree whilst almost all of the presenters were presenting the paper for their phd. There is a gap, a wide gap, between my educatio

Two things to share: 1. Extra Pocket Money Thanks to my parents for helping me with setting my own English classes this holiday. My English class will start on November 25th up till December 25th. It is a new experience for me to promote my English class. Getting calls from interested parents have always made my day. :) Besides planning to do an English class, I am now busy helping a SPM candidate with his Add Math. I am amazed with my Add Math. Guess what, I still remember all the formulas and able to solve difficult questions. I learned Add Math by heart all by myself during my school year. Why? Because the teacher taught us using powerpoint slides and me love playing Gameboy during class.  Also, a mother asks me to help her daughter with Mathematics. Her daughter will be in Form 3 next year, thus she wants her daughter to have a gist of the topics from the Form 3 Mathematics syllabus before she goes to school next year.  That's it with my extra pocket money.

Honestly I love to curse at my life and every little thing that makes it be so miserable but I choose not to. Why? First, obviously, because it is not healthy. Brain researches have revealed that depression and stress can give bad impacts to the structure of the brain and affect the capacity of our brain to work well. Thus, why say yes to destroying my brain for people who never care? Second, being happy is the key to success. How to be happy when life is damn miserable? Come on, be realistic. In life, we have met with lots of sweet things, moments and people. It is us, the heartbroken people, who love to look at the past negatively and weep. There are abundant of goals awaiting us in the future. Why waste them for the past heartbreaking stories? I know exactly who I am, where I stand and which way I am heading to. My heart may break, it might be in pain but I do promise myself that what I feel will never affect where I am going. People say that I'm naive and that being me mad