Day In, Day Out

I dont know if it's just me, But I really believe that everything happens for reasons. My heart was broken once, twice or maybe more, Making it be more abstained from any hurt anymore. Knowing that you have been betrayed hurts the most, Even piles of explanation you can forgive no more. Unwittingly I met this boy, Unintentionally, I fall in love. Being in love is not a novelty, But the feeling this time is more to fantasy, Making me afraid of what is called as reality.

Cik. Whether you like it or not, it's my choice. Whether you like this or that more, it's also my choice. If. If. If you really like it, so take it as yours. I'm not interested. Thank you. And. If. If. If you really hate what I have. Know what, I never fancy yours. Urgh. Someone, please give a super duper massive big mirror to these people.

Ehem *ambil mood serius ;)* Hakim telah berjaya menegaskan bahawasanya 'keputusan' telah dicapai setelah keskes ditimbang berat, ditolak tambah darab bahagi campur. Walaupun keputusan mungkin tidak membuatkan semua pihak bahagia *sebahagia pakcik makcik yang dapat bonus akhir tahun*, keputusan itu cukup membahagiakan pihak yang tertindas dan yang ditindas *is 'tindas' the right word? never mindla*. Sekian. Makhamah bersurai. *Gila ;)*

This week Ive lost two crucial things in my life which are: Money Student Card It is forgivable to lose a sum of money, but I am totally fucked up when I found my card was not in my back pocket. It is very frustrating actually. I got plan for tomorrow which requires me to have my student card but I really have to forget it to give some days hoping one generous human being will keep it for me and return it back to me. Huh! Or else I've to make a new one. It's really really frustrating!

When everything seems to be my mistakes, I stop and think. Maybe this is the point, Where I can sit and wait, If everything I did is just a waste.

May 3, 2006. It was 4 years back but the memory I think will never fade. I know from the day that the day will be the unforgotten one. I cant refrain myself to admit that my 17th birthday celebration is one of the most intrinsic part in my life. At some point, the way my birthday was being celebrated stagged me but I still agree if some people say that the way it was being celebrated is a cliche. At almost 12, eyes being closed with napkin, walked down the stairs, being left alone in the center of the hostel and then whoosh ;) water being poured down from upstair then proceeded with flour and eggs. The best part was running around the hostel with joy and laughter. After they ran out of flour and eggs, I went back to my room, thinking of washing myself when a group of my friends sang Birthday songs. ;). "bla, bla, bla Happy Birthday!" and followed by an unknown shouting "Woi! Diamlah!". What a day ;) It is a wonderful and most interesting birthday I have ever h...

Dear doctor (as if Im writing to a doc. kihkih), I have this problem, I always have a good goodnight sleep every night. I sleep for 8 hours per night and I sleep at the most optimal time which is 10pm-6am or 9pm-5am. I take a number of vitamins every morning which contain of: EPO, Cod Liver Oil, Multivitamin and Collagen *must have ;)*. But the problem is, I always get exhausted even I do nothing. Huh. Thinking of joining gym and Akido this year. Wish me luck. I obviously need more energy this semester. Huih.  

Some say, they hate you because they envy you. They just really want to be you or like you. and I say, they are completely correct. These are my statements: Dear You. I hate you for what I'm not. I agree. I hate you for what you have and I haven't. I also irrationally agree. I make people hate you the way you make people look down on me. I exaggerate your stories the way you exaggerate mine. So even I hate you so, Even I obviously telling others that I am way better than you, I realise that, WE are just the same. There's no different between your attitude and mine. I realise how stupid I am. To hate you and keep hating you. But I have no control over it because deep in my heart, I really want to be you. Funny? Yes. This is funny and you can laugh as hard as you wish. You are pleased to do so. Thank you. Unlike you, I live in nothingness. In me, there's nothing to treasure. I admit, I'm boring. I'm annoying. And many more adjectives ...

I dream of me being a better person.

Went to a conference today. Disebabkan rasa ayu sangatsangat, I'm eager to upload this photo. ;) In this outfitla I help Vdaa moving in her things to her new house. A lot of walking but is very pleased with Vdaa's treat. ;) *kalau nak memindah lagi, just give me a call* hehe ps: Actually I'm exhausted tp gilos nak upload this cacat picture. It's almost 9pm so I call it my bedtime ;)

I'm a normal human being who live imperfectly in this perfect world. and I'm a being who live with flaws and keep making mistakes. Instead I've underlined before that I'm IMPERFECT. Looking back to my past, I realise how much things that I've done. How my life was being destroyed by myself and how people around me helped in destroying my reputation. I live with hatred that I remember clearly ALL the people I hate and the best thing is, I never keep distance with people I hate. The reason why I hate these people so fucking bad is because I am not a type of girl who'll mess others life and when people mess up mine, I'll become irrationally tempestuous. I am a type of girl who'll lock herself in her room for hours and enjoy being home. I am a loner who prefer to be alone. I take people words seriously even they think I never take things for granted. While I am alone, I keep thinking over words I heard. My emotion overwhelm me. I make decisions ba...