Twenty Fifteen

When every year comes to an end, I would write at least a sentence or two on my hopes and dreams for the new year and also a simple note on how the particular year had been. 

New is the year;

New are the hopes;

New is the resolutions;

New are the spirits.

With the power of 'new' I frequently start my year but not in 2014. For 2013 had given me a piece of hell, the torment left me devastated and tired to start 'new' in 2014. The fighter who was always ready for life battles was then shaking with a bundle of nerves behind rusted weapons in an unsung arsenal. Sick! 

I was indeed sick that I started my year crying over the unanswered prayers. Worse, unemployment was the reason for me not to stop having an affair with my bed and snuggled my blanket all day long. Involved in moderate depression, the most that I could think was whether to sleep or to take a long nap.  

I survive life with the help from few fellow friends. Those of whom who never get tired filling my days with a lot of better things to think of and to do. That was when I had the courage to go out again. The day I decided to start new, God met me with my husband.

It was a bit later when I started new in 2014. Only when I started new, I got to enjoy life. So peeps, stop being miserable of your unanswered prayers and start moving on for it is only then that you are able to enjoy life. Enjoying life, for me, means being able to enjoy both; the sweetness and the bitterness of life, and not forgetting to pick up lessons throughout the journey.

 

There were a lot of ups and downs throughout my 2014 journey. 

The most lessons that I've learnt was on my wedding day. It was the day that I learnt the tricks to relationships (be friendship or kinship). Though my eyes could hardly be lifted up because of the fake eyelashes, I could still notice the people whose my happiness on that day was their priority and those who were there because they had to be there. It didn't take a professional to notice that a group of people didn't really want to be a part of your beautiful day. Disappointed. But to know the truth is a bless.

Being posted in a county of my least interest was a real challenge. Further, it took me months to be fine with the fact that He placed me in a school which English was a no-one language. Sometimes I feel as if my English mastery is deteriorating due to how English is used in the school. The process of coping, adapting and being well with everything are indeed energy-consuming. The good news is, for every energy consumed, I got to improve my teaching, life survival and social skills.

I started quite later in 2014. When I started, I never predicted that so much things would happen in a year but they did. 2014 was an eventful year. A year in which big events take place and tricky life lessons gained.

I don't hope much for 2015 for I hate being disappointed. My only hopes are to stay happy with the people that I love dearly and feel fulfilled with the job that pays me. And yeah, I hope I have time to post more entries ;)