Day In, Day Out

It has been a few weeks since I got the mark for my thesis. All I can say is ' Alhamdullilah '. I'd put a lot of hard work and was very determined to make it a success. There were times when I gave up because I thought that 'all that I am doing is rubbish'. When I felt like it, I really took ample time off, had lot of fun and played around. But after all, I had to work extremely hard to regain my will power to continue doing my thesis. Now that everything has ended, I feel a little bit relieved. This is the front cover of my thesis. Yeah, I have a damn long title for my thesis. I only thought of the suitable title for my thesis hours before submitting it and was really nervous to submit it. I was really 'cuak' that I'd even typed my student id wrongly. Haha. Thank God, the lady who worked in the office was really kind to gave me a solution to my silly mistake. More, I must say that the most interesting part of my thesis is my acknowled...

Last week, I got the result for my research proposal. The result was lower than what I'd expected. So obviously I got mad. Haha. Yes, I did. I was very upset as I put a lot of effort in it but it didn't turn out right. The marker said that my title wasn't specific enough and my research questions were very general though my lecturer once confirmed that everything was very specific. So now you get my point of being freaking upset. Macam biasalah. When you dont get what you want, you feel demotivated. Indeed I was very demotivated by the mark. I spent days thinking about it. Yet, I believe that anything happens for reasons. Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not. I hated it but now I realise that it was good for me. As for the poor mark results me to figure out what's wrong with my research ...

I never talk about my thesis kan? Since this is my final year in the UK, I got to do my thesis. How is it? It makes me feel miserable. It really is. Frankly, I have decided on a topic which is not within my area of interest. Sound stupid kan? Memang pun. I am never good in SLA (Second Language Acquisition); an area which I have to understand and fully comprehend with the theories, ideas and issues related to learning other languages. I am never good in it and I never like it. Who knows exactly what is going on whilst someone is learning a language? I swear that learning SLA is something like learning chemistry in school. You have to understand it but you cant see it! No one can really show it to you. And yes, for my SPM, I got B for chemistry and that's the only reason I cant get the scholarship I wanted. Argh. I can almost predict what will happen next. Lalala~ So what made you decide on the topic? Huh. The reason is I hate reading issues of Malaysian education. I find it f...